Mixed feeling

 

In loving memory of our beloved little sister

 景物依旧，人去留空。命运难预测，但愿人长久。

 

Setbacks

 

One stroke survivor once said: “A setback is a setup for you to come back.” But for some setbacks, there’s really no coming back! We can only accept and adapt to setbacks.

Reading from the Japanese’s Wabi-sabi thinking and the Zen Buddhist’s teachings, we have to accept impermanence, imperfection and incomplete nature of everything and the short-lived nature of our existence. 

Coping and healing

 

It’s still very tough to let go the feelings of grief and sorrow.  Trying to cope and manage this difficult time by distracting the mind with exercises, getting enough sleep (though not easy), practise mindfulness and occupying spare time with art. The self-healing process is slow to dilute emotions during such difficult time.   

Re-start

 

After many months of a hiatus, I pick up the paint brush again to distract myself from grief and sorrows. It’s not difficult to re-start this activity but it’s not easy to put down the fact that one of my loyal Fan is no longer around to support my art. Tears still flow, emotions still choke up every time I think of her short life story and the memories she had left behind.